"Organized mess" - that's what it was.

Never save what you can do today for tomorrow. 

Or in other words:

Never save your documents in one place, instead e-mail it to yourself, make use of those online storage websites.

Yeap, but nope. My recent works are gone. Down the electronic drain. Disintegrated into nothingness. Poof!
And I can't blame anyone else but myself. I had to reformat my laptop last week at the cost of my latest works. Well, I can't really call them "works", more like jumbled up pieces of what would be something worth calling that. When I put it that way, I become thankful that my baby decided to throw a tantrum and made me clear everything up in her system. Now I don't have to look at those pieces guiltily and I could start again.

Good news, I don't have to start from scratch because I have some of the first drafts written down on paper before I rewrote them on the computer. They're not much but I can work with this. Most of them are from before I tried to imitate some of my favourite writers. I lost my way with insecurity and even though I kept telling myself that I should just let go of things that are not mine (concerning more than one thing in my life), my desires spoke of dreams that were already claimed and realized by someone else.
But they were not mine.

So now whether I like it or not, I have to let go and move on. With these scraps of paper, I shall mold the story back together. Only this time, I will make it mine.

Listening to: "Everything But Me" by Daughtry
Reading: "House of Leaves" by Mark Z. Danielewski
Watching: "Hyōka" (TV)
Playing: ...
Eating: ...
Drinking: alkaline water