Of sleep and submission dates

It is a ritual to have all hell break loose nearing the end of a semester, especially this final one. Sleep becomes something optional and everyone wouldn't have time for anything else besides from completing assignments.

So why are you doing this Zue? Shouldn't you be writing your final paper?

Yes, I should, and I am. This is just a process of letting out random thoughts so that I can organize the ones I need later. This way, I could just rant all I want and if I find something that may be useful, I take it!

I got a lot of assignments to do still, and what I'm doing is that I jump from one assignment to the other. In the end, my weekend is spent with half-done assignments and none of them are ready for submission yet. I did this because I find it hard to focus on one at a time, which is not a healthy way of multitasking. This is actually quite dangerous and I almost got into trouble for not completing my assignments on time because I wasn't focused on one. I had to be the greedy one to do 2-3 reports at one time.

Story of my life.

Anyway, I think this would be enough rants for the time being. Need to go back to reconstructing my third story.

Wheeee~!

Listening to: "You're Gonna Go Far, Kid" by The Offspring
Reading: "Laskar Pelangi" by Andrea Hirata
Watching: "Another"
Playing: I want "Silent Hill"!!!
Eating: Wholemeal croissant
Drinking: Water laa..

Blessing in Disguise

Okay, the pitching session WAS supposed to be on last Friday. But due to the number of students who had to present (there were a LOT of people, surprisingly), I had to reschedule my session to next week.

I had to admit that I was slightly frustrated because I did not sleep for two days straight just to perfect the proposal, but when I think about it, I'm glad. It was still FAR from perfect.

And I just hate defending something that I am not really passionate about.

So wish me luck again people!

Cheers!

Final Project Rant

It's finally my senior year! Yeay!

Which means it's time for our final project! Nooooooo~!

Well...

...we were given the chance to either choose a thesis or do a project with a mini-thesis. And as usual, I do not want to be doing what everyone is doing, so decided on doing a project.

And as a writer, I have to write laa.. Duh.

Oh wait, it's not that simple. There's a twist to this tale!

I am down with art-block and something I call scrap-happy (you know, like the term "trigger-happy") because I get so picky that I reject most of my own ideas.

I have even submitted one proposal and I scrapped that even though my lecturer told me it was okay to proceed with that one.

Maybe I'm just paranoid. Tee-hee~!

What am I supposed to do? I have never had art-blocks for this long. I mean, I have been researching and scrapping for WEEKS.

Boo hoo hoo...

Oh well, back to the books. Gotta stay away from the internet as much as I could for now. Pray that I can get this sorted out.

Another year coming to a close

Yes ladies and gents, 2010 is coming to an end while 2011 is on its way (insya Allah). There were a lot of things that happened throughout 2010. Some were good, some not so. But I must say that I've been the happiest and saddest in this year.

There were things I did that I'm not too proud of. So I'm hoping that 2011 is a year that would bring new hope to be better. I'm highly aware of my support-meter from "certain" people, and it's not something to brag about. But hey, I've got to do this. I have to do my best to get to where I want to be.

My new year resolutions for 2011 is a bit different from the years before. Maybe it was because I lost myself for too long and now I don't only have to move forward, but I have to recollect the bits and pieces of my life that I pushed away.

The past, as much as I would like to forget about them, is something that we shouldn't forget. Sure, they say that we have to forget the past to get over a bad experience. But an experience would still be an experience; good or bad. We all learn from mistakes and we want to do better with our lives.

Live without regrets!

The Awaited Day

I have been waiting for this day for months! And I really hope to God that I could do well in college.
I'm a nervous wreck right now! I even repacked twice because of this!

I may be very busy starting next week, but I think that I might have another blog for college updates. Plus, since the course that I'll be taking is Artistic Writing, guess what I'll be doing a lot in the future?

Besides that, I would like to say to those who have been worried about me all this time; "Thank you for all your help. It's alright now. This is my own decision. I'll try harder this time."
But please, do not question me about my choice. I've gone through sleepless nights to think this through, and I've decided.
May this be my terminus a quo...

Updates! Finally...

I am going to be taking Artistic Writing this December! Woo hoo!
You have no idea how happy I am right now!

Dear Lover - a poem

I wrote this one night when I couldn't sleep. I kinda erased the first stanza, but I think that the poem works well without it. So, here goes:


My devotion for you could never be explained by words.
For they are hollow beings that I am being haunted by.
I would not lie about what I would do for you, however.
The high mountains are not meant for my legs to climb.
The harsh deserts are not for me to travel in.
But my heart and love are what it is to give.
For everything else that I could hand to you are by me.
For I am a mere creature who could not escape death.

If there is to be some twist in fate that we might not be.
Be but not cruel to my gift for thee.
However if your feelings are matched with mine.
Learn that my heart is a glass globe.
What appears to be a solid and sturdy object.
Could be easily broken and difficult to mend.
And that the only remedy is your love.

P.S.: Yes, it's kinda mushy, I know. But I can't help it!